Fear of the Unknown

Parshat Vayishlach

by Rabbi Avi Billet

Yaakov sends messengers to Eisav telling Eisav his story about having lived with Lavan and having amassed wealth. Perhaps Yaakov is indicating his intent to put the past behind them. “I am happy to share my wealth with you, and I hope you are well. I am your servant." It could be Yaakov hopes not to see Eisav at all.

The messengers come back with the news that “we ‘came’ to your brother, to Eisav, and he is ‘going’ to you accompanied by 400 men.” Alshikh explains “coming” implies closeness – how Yaakov’s servants intended to approach Eisav - while “going” implies distance, perhaps indicating the attitude Eisav was bringing to his encounter with Yaakov.

Where was Eisav coming from? Some suggest he was at home, with no intent to come until he heard Yaakov was on his way (Sforno, Ibn Ezra) But what was his intent? This is unclear: he’s simply “coming” (Ramban); he’s coming to fight because he hates you (Rashi and many others); he is happy about your return and is bringing 400 men to honor you (Rashbam, Chizkuni).

Certainly the indication of the verse is that Rashbam and Chizkuni are correct, and that the fear of battle was all in Yaakov’s mind. The encounter certainly includes no ill intentions, Eisav greets Yaakov warmly with hug and kiss, as he is gracious and magnanimous.

Why then was Yaakov afraid?

He may have been fearful for his life, or as Rashi, etc suggest, he had a concern either that he would be killed, or that he'd be forced to take a life in self-defense.

But the man had been promised by God that He would protect him and return him home safely! Where is Yaakov's faith in God?

If Adino HaEtzni (Shmuel II 23:8) killed 800 men by himself! Yaakov, who fought with an angel, is afraid of 400 men?! (R Chaim Paltiel)

The Midrash tells in the name of Resh Lakish and Rav Yanai that each of the 400  men was a “man” like Eisav – in charge of 400 men each. This suggests he had at least 160,000 people. This is reason to fear.

There are other suggestions of why Yaakov feared: Eisav had merits from honoring his father, Yaakov hadn’t fulfilled his promise to tithe in Beit El, or what Toldot Yitzchak suggests, that if Eisav seems to be coming to attack Yaakov, it must mean Yitzchak is dead. The fear that Yaakov is then experiencing is that he will never see his father again.

Of course, the most likely reason for Yaakov's fear follows that of the Chizkuni – the fear comes from the unknown – Yaakov did not know if Eisav's intentions are good or bad.

And this confusion is noted in Yaakov's language when he says, “Please save me from my brother, from Eisav” meaning, he is pretending to be my brother, but he remains Eisav the hunter and trapper.

I don't think we have to look at Yaakov's fear from the perspective of the numbers. On paper Goliath should have defeated David. On paper Israel should not have defeated Arab armies in most of the wars they fought. And yet, the unexpected happened, and the underdog survived the conflicts.

Fear doesn't come from numbers. It comes from the unknown.

Eisav may have nice intentions. And maybe, in the end, the niceness comes out. But the bottom line is that it cannot be assumed. Preparation needs to be made for the worst. Because, too often, the worst turns out to be the reality. Eisav, unfortunately, is unpredictable. We don't know what he is thinking.

We may be “coming” with love and with the dove of peace, but Eisav may still be “going” to his own destination, irrespective of where we stand on that journey.

When random people are murdered or stabbed in Israel simply because the attackers view all Jews as aggressors who deserve this physical assault, the fear that emerges from those at a bus station or a train station is that of the unknown. Will anything happen today?

Yaakov needs to carry his fears, because he does not know what his adversary is thinking or has going for him: the other side may be more worthy in the eyes of God, maybe we haven’t kept our promises to God, maybe we’ve strayed so far from our Father in Heaven that he is “dead” to us. We must take precautions that these not become true for us. Recommit to God, keep our word.

For the sake of survival, our brothers and sisters in Israel and around the world surely must subscribe to the fear Rashi ascribes to Yaakov, “That I will be forced to kill someone in self-defense” – as Golda Meir articulated when she said, “We can forgive the Arabs for killing our sons, but we can’t forgive them for forcing us to kill their sons.”

But the rule of “when one comes to kill you, you must rise to kill him first” is essential for survival. Without it, we are all sitting ducks.

The Kli Yakar summarized Yaakov’s thought process: "May Hashem be with me and protect me from those who show themselves to be helpers and loved ones but who truly have hatred embedded in their hearts."

Facing the unknown can be frightening, even for the God-fearing, and even for those who are righteous in their ways. But when we feel those we encounter harbor hatred in their hearts, it becomes our challenge, like Yaakov, to be prepared for the worst, while we continue to hope for the best.